July302014

itoriterror said: How do you physically show someone that you care about them...?

Take them out on cute dates, send them texts, hug them, kiss them. Honestly, I think talking in person to them about how they feel is a big one. 

June212014

Anonymous said: Why are so little people submitting?

The blog has died down quite a bit since when it first started!

June202014

The Story of Us.

Ten months ago I nervously stepped through the doors of my high school library . I sweep the room with my eyes. There he sat at my table, a wave of emotion took hold me and I was no longer able to think. He was absolutely the most handsomest man I have ever seen. The way he looked at me made me go weak. His brown eyes speckled with the curiosity of who I was. His nervous smile made me blush, I turn away. Everything drew me to him. The way he walked, how he breathed, even though our conversations were never more than a few words I craved him. I needed to know more. The thought of what he may behold drew me to began the chase.

June172014

Lover,

I don’t know what to say anymore. I can’t seem to speak my mind. Why? I have no clue. And I’m so sorry you have to deal with that. You deserve so much better. Again I am sorry for my lack of commutation. Just… Know I really am trying. It that it kills me every morning I wake up knowing I cant give you what you want. I don’t know if this will ever go away. Just.. Please stand and help me through it? I love you more than anything..

Yours truly,madly,deeply.. 

June62014

dandoon4 said: Well I need to noww somethongg if ur boyfriend is alwayss tiredd and falling asleep andd hass to studdy for exams but still tells u youu that he loves youu andd he would never leavee youu whatt do u doo im lost I really love him but dunno what to do

He’s exhausted from exams. Give him space. He’ll be okay. 

May82014

Dear you,

I will always love you. 

10PM

Dear Current Boyfriend

You’re great. I enjoy every moment with you. You’re so much better than any thing I’ve had before. I think that’s why I got attached. But I know deep down all you think about is her. That almost all you talk about is your ex. It hurts. But I listen. I nod, and smile even though it’s killing me just to get in your face and yell at you. You said it yourself you were lucky once, and now again with me. I get it she was the first love.. but damn. Why do you talk about her after sex with me? Comparing us together. Are you only with me because her and I are alike. Because I remind you of the past and that’s the only reason you keep me around. 

Now you’re here making comments about my weight, and appearance. Bet you don’t even know I cry myself to sleep at night. I tried to text you, hoping you’d be there for me but you don’t even want to talk, do you? 

Maybe I’m blowing this all out of portion.  I guess i’m too nice to tell you the truth.

She doesn’t want to be with you. She has someone else, she moved on and your still holding on. But you’re only setting yourself up for disappointment. Can’t you tell I’m consistently on the edge now?

But..what if she come back.. then what are you going to do with me..

I know you’d pick her any day.. 

It’s all messed up, but the sadness of it all is the fact that,

I think I love you. But will I never say it? Not until shes out of the picture. It’s been years. She hasn’t contacted you. This isn’t a movie, it’s not going to go how you want. But if you have a good girl by your side already who cares for you, can laugh with you about anything and talk for hours.. couldn’t that just be enough.

I guess only time can tell. I’ll try not to over think until then

February92014

Dear Current Boyfriend,

It’s way too soon to say “I love you.” Way too soon. But sometimes, when we’re lying together and I sigh too loudly or make a little noise, it’s because I physically can’t hold all of this in. And when I say it, I hope you say it first, but either way, it will probably either slip out by accident - a little piece of a tune that we’ve both hummed a million times in another life - or the sighing won’t be enough and my body will tingle and my face will go numb and I’ll feel a wave of passion and guilt and fear and ecstasy as I say, “I love you.” I’m not ready to love someone again. I am so scared to love someone again. But dear god, you beautiful man, do you overwhelm me. 

January192014

Dear Current Boyfriend

You have listened to me torturously explain the hideous betrayals I lied to you about for so long and you have seen your world turned upside down and you have loved me with a commitment and a truth and a fervour that I know I will never have again. We may both be young but I think I can say that with quiet certainty. My heart is tied to you in ways that I can’t put into words, inextricable from myself, like a friend, a lover, a brother - but still your and my unhappiness murmurs underneath every day and it just leads me to think: maybe it isn’t love?

You said the worst thing would be if you were still trying and I gave up.

I am infatuated with another boy, but I haven’t even mentioned him to you.

Where do I go from here?

I don’t want to hurt you, I’m terrified of being alone, I want to be happy, I want to be free, I want to mature, I want to work through my problems, I don’t want to work through my problems until I really have to, I want to just do exactly what I want and isn’t that selfish especially after everything I’ve already done.

I can’t leave you and I think I shouldn’t. But I really would if you would let me go.

I can’t stand the shame I feel everytime I look at you. I want to let you get over me, live your life, find a nice girl who doesn’t lie or sleep with guys because she’s ‘lonely.’ I want to find someone else who when we tell our love story to other people, we won’t have to lie.

But what if this is it? What if I throw away everything here and I give up on the best thing in my life? And I hurt you more? I couldn’t hurt you more, I would never be able to forgive myself.

Just decide soon what you want. And please put me out of my misery.

I love you.

January122014

Completely Unsure

So. I’ve been with you close to a year. We get along well, we always have. We very rarely fight, but when we do, they’re pretty big blowouts. We usually makeup the day of the fight, though.  We just now kinda had a fight, though. You took me to your church and it made me very uncomfortable. I felt incredibly awkward, and it showed. One of the big reasons behind this was because I was sitting directly between you and your ex-girlfriend, who you usually sit with at church. This also makes me rather uncomfortable, because you spend nearly as much time with her as you do with me. 

Is it wrong of me to feel this way? I know that she’s having problems, so… should I be jealous, or angry, or whatever it is inside of me? I don’t understand why you’re angry with me. I thought I would like it, and I did mostly like it. I just… have a difficult time in new situations, which you know. 

You don’t really accept me for who I am. It’s incredibly difficult for you to be with a guy, and I get it. It’s just really difficult for me sometimes, because I bear all the weight of these things. Sometimes, I’m not sure if we should actually be together… 

But I love you, and I enjoy being with you, and we have a mostly healthy relationship, so I’m kind of just unsure. 

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